everyone who has responded to the last post will be added from the new journal. so if someone adds you in the next few days, it'll be me.

thanks everyone!
black pearls

a brand new day

much like i left my old journal when a new chapter of my life started (when rosie moved in with me in toronto and the subsequent drama unfolded) i will be either be changing names on this one or starting a brand new one in the next couple of days. i've been journalling less because my life has become much less complicated and the drama that does occur is dealt with quickly and without the privilege of being allocated much of my mental health time.

i've lost touch with a lot of friends since my move to montreal and while it hurts somewhat, it is the normal evolution of life. people change, grow, move on, grow apart, grow older or in my case grow to be one boring ass person.

still, if you want to follow me on this new journey please do let me know and i will add you as a friend.

to all of those who helped me in my times of need, the many, many times i needed, thank you. from the bottom of my heart. i can never truly thank you enough for saving my life more than once and for giving enough of a damn to help a sister out when she needed it most. i cherish you and what you have done for me and will never forget your immense hearts and kindness.

i wish you all the best.


TO elections

here's what i really think:

i think that if i wanted 2M$ to build a lake in the heart of the city, Smitherman would say no. And I could try and provide live bait to him and he'd still say no. Ford, on the other hand, makes me think that if I offered him a blow job for the lake, he'd say yes. and that's why i wouldn't vote for Ford.

(no subject)

WILL PAY MONEY to the first person who can translate my resume from English to French. of COURSE i could do it but i would really, really, rather not. 25c a word plus more money to adjust/re-phrase stuff? i need this asap.
glittering fan

conflicted about stuff but not this

what i am not conflicted about is Degrassi introducing its first female to male trans character. it's opened up talks with my 13 year old son and introduced rosie to the concept that not all trans people are gay. it's very well done and heartbreaking at times but most definitely something all teens should watch with their parents.

Books I Did Not Find At Chapters

Gold digging for beginners: When your handsome successful affair ends up leaving his wife she will take him to the cleaners, take his house, take his kids and quite possibly take his car. He will also be paying alimony and child support for years to come. Why you might want to reconsider your cunning plan inside!

Mistressing 101. You're pretty, young and your breasts point north now but one day you will be older, fatter and will not be able to escape gravity. Looks fade but intelligence does not!
The complete guide on how to be interesting, smart, witty and being able to hold a conversation without mentionning the words "like!" "totally!" and "ummmmm?".

Cheat Sheet For The Girl Who "Just Doesn't Read, d'uh!"
Levinas is a philosopher, not a magician who "levitates". Kundera is a writer, not some after hours club. Pollock is a painter, not an STD. Haper is not a politician, he's a Commodore 64 that never got an upgrade.

now that i am older i:

make my bed every day.
call my grand parents more often.
wear underwear.
have an optimum card.
don't wear make up every day.
don't have a need to wear black all the time.
see the positive side of things.
wear pink.
write erotica.
know that i am good enough.
don't have mommy issues.
eat twice a day.
don't care about the 5 extra pounds i am carrying.
have a starbucks card.
have a skin care regimen.
would rather stay home with friends than go clubbing.
wear sweat pants around the house.
understand the value in having great friends.
don't need a man but want one.
am independant.
oogle college boys and whistle at them as they walk by.
have a natural dye job.
can cook coq au vin for 6 people.
make lists.
think before i speak.
read proust.
frame pictures.
am less materialistic.
drink beer with the boys and play videogames.
buy my own jewelry.
can keep secrets.


I am a d4

Take the quiz at

You are a d4: You are bright, perceptive, and driven. You would be considered a blessing to mankind, if you didn't insist on using your powers for evil. You are devious, deceitful, doubtful, and downright dangerous. Assassins can learn a lot from you. If your fellow party members knew how rotten you were, they'd go over and join the bad guys. Justified or not, you are meticulous in your ways: A poison for every person, and a dagger for every back. Much of your day is spent scheming or plotting. The rest of your time is spent trying to convince others that you're simply misunderstood.

mama likes. mama likes a lot.